this narrow path

james 1:12

¹² Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.


before break started, i was with a friend who said he wanted to come to church with me because he was feeling empty and felt like his life was becoming purposeless. when i asked him, "how do you think coming to church will help you then?".. he responded, "i feel like there will be a meaning to life and to why i'm putting so much time and effort into school."

the response was genuine and i can it came straight from his heart. this got me thinking and re-evaluating myself and where i was headed. sometimes, i feel just like he does-- even though i am a christian, i fall in those stages where i feel like there's nothing for me. i go to school, work part time to earn money for living expenses, serve at church... i took a step back and and asked myself why. i remember how even last year, i was soo uptight about school and life. i was a go-getterr and i knew exactly what i wanted for myself. motivation was at a high.

james 1:12 restates a promise that GOd has given us. and for me, it's hard to see it. as a christian, i sometimes see things in such a negative perspective. but this promise holds true in every way possible. i stopped thinking about this promise for a while. sure, it comes up at church, or when i'm doing my qts. but this is where i fall short. i have to push myself to see the bigger picture again. because He loves us, let's trust that He'll put everything into place.