thanksgiving.

Hebrews 12:28

28 Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe


scripture says "let us be thankful.".. this is my weakness. i dwell on things that i don't have, that it consumes me most of the time. this is what makes me fall.. maybe i needed this week. i needed to see my family. i needed this week to relax and keep my mind off school and whatever's been consuming my life.

yesterday, i fell asleep in my mom's arms for a nap; today, as my parents were leaving to the airport, my dad gave me the biggest hug he has ever given me, and so did my mom. they know. i don't even have to tell them and they know how much i'm suffering or how happy i've been. after they left, my heart sank. it sank because i completely shut them out this past summer when i was living with them. i hated being around people, even if that meant people who wanted to help me stand up again and be there for me and comfort me. what i didn't realize is that this was God's doings. HE graciously opened that door for me, but because of my prideful heart, i slammed it shut.

God has taught me so much. and HE is continuing to teach me those unsearchable things. in my life, so many people have come and gone, but my family has always been there. He's kept them safe and sound and for that i'm thankful for beyond words. it's also through them that He has shown me what His love is like-His 'cannot be shaken' love.

praise God =]