throw away those regrets

Philippians 3:12-21.. the passage about "pressing on toward the goal"


we all make mistakes. my sister and i were driving back up to purdue from south bend tonight- and we talked the entire time about some stuff. one of the topics was one of the biggest mistakes that i made about a year ago. i didn't think i was doing any harm because it was very unintentional- but now that i look back and think about it, i just sigh deeeply and shake my head at myself and my actions and my thoughts. i keeep thinking of the things i should have done or what i SHOULDN'T have done.

regrets --- the hardest thing for me to do is to forget and throw them away.

i really needed to read this passage. "..i press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 brothers, i do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. but one thing i do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead..."

i don't understand why i hold onto these mistakes that i have made- i really don't understand. i can't do anything about it because it's in the past. and the bible clearly states that i need to strain towards the future and to presss onward towards GOd. wow-- this really taught me that i'm not perfect. i can't be. even if i try to be,, it might be hurting someone else. this is why i can't forget it. because it affected someone else. s i g h .

i pray and repent and ask my Father that something like this willl never happen again-- at the same time, help me to seeek His love, help me to seeek the ultimate prize, and not dwell upon my past mistakes. this really humbled me though... it really taught me to keep depending on God and not on my own understandings/assumptions.

but i do wanna do this and apologize from the bottom of my heart to those affected-- but with that, i'm gonna ask God to help me throw away my past mistakes and to help me presevere.