freshmen year.

wow i'm officially done with my first year. that went by extremely fast, and yet, when i reflect, so much has happened.

amongst the numerous things that i have learned, three major lessons i wanna point out.

1. i learned what it means to care, rather than to judge
2. HE gives and takes away
3. live according to HIS will.

#1. not much to say about this one. except i do wanna say that i learned to be selfless. instead of praying just for myself, for my needs and wants, how bout praying for someone else.. yeah?. and not just praying for him or her because you feel obligated to, but out of your own desires. i learned to not be afraid to open up to people [especially your brothers and sisters from church] because that's why they're there. seriously. no one deserves to suffer alone. instead of talking behind his or her back about the numerous mistakes he or she has made, approach him or her and try talking to them about prayer.

#2. blessed be the name of the LORD. you give and take away. i sang, but never understood. well, now i do. while i was going through some emotional stuff, someone i once knew told me that HE gives and takes away. and HE will always give and take away, whether we like it or not. HE brings someone into your life who becomes somewhat significant, then takes him or her away from you the next day. HE places you in the happiest state of mind, then something traumatic happens the next day. like the saying goes, HE gives and takes away. we might not like it. but don't underestimate HIM, cuz HE knows exactly what's good for you. which leads me to my third point.

#3. live according to HIS will. the most significant of them all. if anything, i learned to distinguish my desires from God's desires for me. they're totally different. but guess which one is always right in the end?!. most definitely not mine. for me, i knew what God wanted for me. i knew what HE wanted for me to do. but i was stubborn and ignored HIM for a while because of my own desires. and because of that, i fought with God a lot this year. not good. HIS plan > my plan.

and now.. to hibernation. have a great summer =]